Been a while

It has been a while since my last post and things have been crazy these past couple of months have been crazy... I dont know I have been living my life, making mistakes along the way but still living my life and learning things along the way... It has been great and sad and lonely at moments trying to get over a relationship which i cant say im totally over to be honest. But i feel like we are both accepting that we are not meant to be together at this time... and after receiving a letter from him the other day I felt so HAPPY that he was doing good and living his life... We have been through lots of shit together and have been on an emotional roller coaster but im glad that friendship wise, we will be ok... his optimistic letter brightened my day even more because i still care for him and what is in the past is in the past and I dont see the point in letting past issues get the best of me now... I dont know right now as I am sitting on this computer i feel soooo happy... everything is falling into place and my relationship with my parents has NEVER been so GREAT! They know that when I have sorted myself out, I will take care of them the way they have taken care of me since my birth. I also think our relationship has been fantastic because these past few months I have been kicked in the face with how all the things they used to yell at me for was so true... I used to think they were just having aging issues but they were so right. And as I learned each lesson it made me love them even more and made me realize what great people they are. I used to also get annoyed at all the family secrets that unbeknownst to my parents i was uncovering... but i then I realized everyone has baggage and everyone has done things that they are not too proud of because we are not perfect and as long as we learn from our mistakes...eventually... or god helps you understand the error of your ways
then good for you... i realized their secrets were from then, and this is NOW so no need to hold on to them... They are great people now and that is all that matters to me... and on the friendship section i feel like i have made new friends and have had so much fun chilling with people and have caught up with old friends. I feel like things are looking up and i hope my last semester will help prepare me for the next chapter of my life... can't wait!