What to do?

Sometimes when you sit down and reflect on your life and how things are going, you start noticing how much you shut yourself down emotionally in order to keep going. You let people take advantage of your kindness and you let people blame you for their own ways. You start noticing little things that normally you just brush off your shoulder because they are not a big deal but when you look at them in detail, you realize that those little things are a hint of that persons weakness.

You start dreaming of being somewhere else where you know you are safe, like your parents home or a place where you are alone, away from the world, away from those who stress you out, away from everything that is wrong in your world. You start using your imagination to set you free and escape situations by imagining a better life, better friends, better partners etc. But upon that dissection of your life, you start to realize that things will get better one day, if you let them be, if you choose to make changes in your life, even if it means shedding some ties.

As they always say, life will always go on no matter what, and only the fittest will truly survive, look at your life, are you fit to survive with the way things are?

Some people wont change...so lets do karoke!

I have realized that some people will never change who they are because they will always keep being selfish and think about themselves. It is a fact of life. It is quite disappointing, but hey, who the hell cares... they will swim in their own little world while I go Karaoke! HAHAHA! Yes last nite was my first Karaoke experience. After receiving a phone call from Tim Tam and Squina, I left the Unipub and rushed to their sides and sang the Shoop Shoop song (Its in his eyes) by Cher... with Katya by my side ofcourse :). Apparently I had a fan in the crowd coz we left with Tim Tam and his crew to go to Unipub and then left again to go to Chicken Gourmet. On our Chicken Gourmet, this French guy was like "I have got a question for yall" and Katya was like "Question for who?" and he was like "Question for her (pointing to me)"... Orione then realized that the guy spoke french so they started to talk in French the whole way to Chicken Gourmet... apparantly about me... but I was way too driven to get to Chicken Gourmet that I was running all the way there...HHAHAHA... so we got to chicken gourmet and he was still obsessing over me but then we decided to leave coz Katya was tired so we went around looking for a taxi and eventually got one and the taxi driver was awesome... apparently he goes to UC... and we were like "Can we be your friends?" and he laughed and even offered to discount our taxi fare but we wanted to pay the full fare...And then i freaked out coz i couldnt find my keys... so we woke poor ol' Jenny up... and then i realized my keys were still in my door hole... woops... hahahaha...It was a pretty fun nite despite the 2 people i realized that will never change...But i guess it is their life... TISK TISK...

This is my move, my single status

This is my song of the day.. Its by Natasha Beddingfield

I'm not waitin' around for a man to save me
(Cause I'm happy where I am)
Don't depend on a guy to validate me
(No no)
I don't need to be anyone's baby
(Is that so hard to understand?)
No I don't need another half to make me whole

Make your move if you want
Doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up
You either got it or you don't

[Chorus:]
This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the reascendant

I'm single
(Right now)
That's how I wanna be
I'm single
(Right now)
That's how I wanna be

Ah yeah uh huh that's right

Don't need to be on somebody's arm to look good
(I like who I am)
I'm not saying I don't wanna fall in love 'cause I would
I'm not gonna get hooked up just 'cause you say I should
(Can't romance on demand)
I'm gonna wait so I'm sorry if you misunderstood

You say goodbye, I say hello

After learning of some home truths from an anonymous person, I realized somethings in life aren't meant to be. At first when i got the message I was a bit annoyed that some people can say they love you and get with someone else. It was an incident that happened in May which I wont mention but it made me realize that I don't know this person. Thanks to this anonymous person, it has made me realize some things. I guess it is true that you can't be friends with your ex, even though i don't believe that. I write and get no response, people say shit and I protect but i am totally over it and getting ready for tomorrow. Last week was the first time I actually let a guy knowingly flirt with me in 2 and 1/2 years. I mean the only action I got during our separation was through a dare and even then it meant nothing because my heart was somewhere else. It was great because it made me realize that the absence of communication actually does help a person move on from another. I feel great and ready to go to the next chapter. A year left and the world is my oyster and the sky is the limit. I never thought I could be strong again but this anonymous person has help me tremendously. I removed the anonymous message from my blog and deleted it from my email out of respect of my ex but I just wanted to say, we tried, we failed, it is just time to move on.


Its a new day.

Response to the Anonymous on Obama

To the person who replied to my Obama story. Thanks for your response. I found it funny and fair. But about the whole Obama thing, It was meant to be a fun response to how i choose Obama coz he is hot... Im not American so I can't vote but I am making a light response to the fact that being Hot and sounding smart can easily make people vote for them. I just think he is smarter than Bush. I think anyone is. But thats my opinion. Anyways thanks for your response :)

TV rambles

I was watching the TV and a movie and i realized things.

Firstly I was watching the DR.Phil show and he said something so true! He said it is better to be single and be healthy than sick as a couple. Your happiness is all you have and if someone impends that happiness then it is far better to be single and alone... at least you will be happy.

The second thing I thought was interesting was from Evan Almighty. They said that if you want to change the world you need to do Acts of Random Kindness, (A.R.K) and that is so true. You have to help a family at a time and it will become something bigger.

Jerks are not more interesting

I read this article on MSN and it was interesting.

The beginning line is:

Repeat this to yourself one thousand times:
Screwed-up people are not more interesting than people with their heads together. Baggage is not fascinating, romantic, or exciting. It is very, very tiring. Men who are polite and emotionally mature are hot. Learn it, love it, live by it.


If you want to read the rest go to MSN.

Anyways I thought the article was quite interesting. I guess jerks are not emotionally complex but emotionally retarded. I need to remember that.